I have been thinking a lot of this new year, and changes to be made. I want to better myself in the form of compassion, consideration, thoughtfulness, and kindness. I want to try to really embrace a more positive attitude, and say goodbye to my cynical ways. There is no need to be a "Debbie-downer." I want to make myself more approachable, and easier to get along with.
This southern atmosphere really wears me down. There is nothing like a southern gentleman opening every door you pass through, but the sad thing is, he just told a racial joke or made a sexist remark soon followed by a comment about being a Christian. The hypocrisy is killing me. More than that, bad habits have rubbed off on me, and I have become rather jaded. I wish to embrace a fresh open mind. For the most part, I am not surrounded by people with my same outlook, and keeping to myself is the safest ride. In all of my romanticized expectations of embracing fellow humans in a more giving fashion, I think I need to step back from the downers and to keep to myself. I am happy by myself and have missed daydreaming in this past year. I want to devote plenty more time to daydreaming, in every form and fashion. I miss spending an entire afternoon laying in my cushy bed with the curtains wide open and the sun on my skin. There is nothing like cool sheets when it's an Alabama one hundred degrees outside. It's better than sweet tea. And there is always the joy of laying in bed while it rains, windows wide open and enjoying the grey foggy days that have become rather frequent visitors. I may not have someone who appreciates the little things like I do, but gosh darn it, I am going to remember them, and try to take them all in.
I have been wanting to make a quilt for a very looong while now. Years. I have this big fear of it. I want it to be so perfect and I just can't bring myself to start. I am also intimidated by the shear size of the project. I'm thinking the only to get done with it is to make mini goals for this big goal. I WILL MAKE A QUILT IN 2010!
I WILL MAKE A QUILT IN 2010!
I WILL MAKE A QUILT IN 2010!
I have said this year after year. Well, this is the year. If I fail, then at least I can say the fabric is used & ruined, and I will feel better about it than it sitting in my attic.
I want to be very responsible financially this year. I have started on the right foot. I attended my 401k meeting, automated money to go into savings every paycheck, and signed myself for additional insurance.
I want to practice more frugality. I want to save on everyday items and make room for more important things, like investing in school and travel. I want to be more wise with my money. Keep working on finding the better deal and making smart purchases.
I want to honestly consider going back to school. I would really like to go back this fall. My doubt has always been in a major. Too many interests creates no interest. I can never decide. Marketing? Photography? The big dive, Pharmacy?
I want to make our house a home. I want to feather our little nest. I want a tasteful, timeless home. This is our grown up home, and I want a grown up decor. I am excited about it. It also sparks my interests in repurposing furniture.
Part of making this house a home is creating a dreamy yard and garden. I am really excited about this. I can not wait for spring. My dream is to have a cute little wedding at our little home and use flowers from my little garden. That is not my goal for this year, but it is a reoccurring daydream. I want a garden the neighbors are envious of. I don't think it'll be that hard considering no one in the neighborhood has really done anything with their yards. I finally have my own home & yard. A fresh new start for the year.
I would like to travel more this year. Take more little spontaneous adventures out of town, and I am putting my best effort forward to make it to the west coast. This is my year. I feel it.
Most of all, I want to make my priorities a priority, and not sweat the rest. Get lost in my own little dream. That is the plan.
